I’m getting plastic surgery to hide my cam identity, and I want to die

[chickennugget1]

I’ve been camming since I was 18. I was very naive and insecure. I did well so I thought it was great - great money and boost of confidence. I’m 23 now and I’ve realised I’ve made a huge fucking mistake. I don’t want to do it anymore and it makes me so depressed logging on. I’ve planned to change my whole life in a very short timespan, I’m enrolling in college, moving to a new city, dating, trying to make friends. I am having a major life crisis.
And now that I’m keeping this life in the past, the issue I am dealing with now, is being discovered.
I’m going to college and looking for a full time job. What if I complete a full 4 year degree just to be declined jobs because camming comes up in my background? Or an employee searches me up and discovers my shows and gets me fired? My future children seeing my shows? What have I done ?
The god damn facial recognition apps these days are available to anyone. I knew it was always a risk to cam but now that technology has really caught up, we are even more screwed than before if you ever want to be like me and give up camming and go back to work.
I searched my passport photo in one of the facial recognition apps and all my cam shows on google came up. It won’t be long until employers are using these facial recognition softwares as background checks, and if anyone for any reason wants to search a photo of me, my cam life will be there for them to see. The only way we got away with it before is because these apps didn’t exist. No one would have known we were cam girls unless we told them or in the rare circumstance they were a member and saw us. Now if a person obtains a photo of you, they can search you up and discover your cam identity. These facial recognition apps have changed everything and it’s basically the worst time for me to change my life.

Doing my reasearch on how to fucking dodge these apps, the only answer is plastic fucking surgery. And I know it’s not even guaranteed to work, but it makes sense and there is a ton of research to back it up. I’m literally saving for a nose job, jaw surgery, lip fillers, etc. Any slight difference will help me not get recognised on these softwars because they measure through biometrics. So size of your nose, jaw etc. so I’m changing it all!!
After I’m done I’m getting a new passport photo with my new face that future employers can use. And I’ll never use social media. I can’t afford to put a selfie up just to have someone search me up in google.
And then I’m going to pay cam model protection to take down as much of my shows as they can. Thankfully I never had a cam social media or posted selfies, the only thing I need gone are my shows.

I can’t believe I’m about to do all this, this will be my last year on cam and then I’m getting my surgeries and jumping into the other side of the world. I am terrified and anxious. I feel like I’ve completely fucked my life up. I use to be so happy as a cam girl.

It really feels like the real world isn’t for us. And it’s not fair. I hate that we get judged for it. That we can’t do certain jobs because of it. People watch porn everyday and it’s fine, but it’s not okay to participate in it? It’s twisted. I feel like I’ll have a knife over my head for the rest of my life, I’ll be constantly paranoid.

And when I joined cam I was very much the type of person who was totally cool with it, no worries at all. Thoughts change and I didn’t expect it to happen to me. I really hate this.

Anyway, that’s my rant. Any advice or similar experiences would be nice to read. I know the plastic surgery sounds extreme, but it’s the only legitimate solution I have.

 

[Jay_Storm]

I don't know if I can help but I think you just need to own it. It is part of your life. You didn't kill anyone or break any laws. Many employers won't care since you were not doing anything illegal. And if they do, next please.

And future children, are you going to teach them that sex work is shameful or that it is a personal choice that some people find empowering?

I did a lot of drugs in my 20s and did some stupid shit. Many people have seen me at my worst but I never put it on a resume but I have been candid with coworkers when it has come up.

Attitudes have changed. Kim Kardashian is a billionaire and it all started with a sex tape.

Sorry if this hasn't helped but you are probably amazing and will have an amazing life if you want.

 

[JessicaXOXOXO]

I had this gut punch feeling myself back when I started I was only 19. I always paid taxes. When I went into the corporate world in 2012 - they just verified the experience I had on my resume was accurate. One opportunity went down the list of all the jobs I had that ever were reported to the IRS only because it effected the pay band I was in due to having more work experience in general. It never impacted me negatively. However, personally, I learned the better you look the more money you make in business in general. I was granted more opportunity, more business meetings, more sales the more effort I put into my physical appearance.

Life isn't about regret. It is about lessons learned. Don't live in fear.

 

[JessicaXOXOXO]

The god damn facial recognition apps these days are available to anyone. I knew it was always a risk to cam but now that technology has really caught up, we are even more screwed than before if you ever want to be like me and give up camming and go back to work.
I searched my passport photo in one of the facial recognition apps and all my cam shows on google came up. It won’t be long until employers are using these facial recognition softwares as background checks, and if anyone for any reason wants to search a photo of me, my cam life will be there for them to see. The only way we got away with it before is because these apps didn’t exist. No one would have known we were cam girls unless we told them or in the rare circumstance they were a member and saw us. Now if a person obtains a photo of you, they can search you up and discover your cam identity. These facial recognition apps have changed everything and it’s basically the worst time for me to change my life.

Doing my reasearch on how to fucking dodge these apps, the only answer is plastic fucking surgery. And I know it’s not even guaranteed to work, but it makes sense and there is a ton of research to back it up. I’m literally saving for a nose job, jaw surgery, lip fillers, etc. Any slight difference will help me not get recognised on these softwars because they measure through biometrics. So size of your nose, jaw etc. so I’m changing it all!!
After I’m done I’m getting a new passport photo with my new face that future employers can use. And I’ll never use social media. I can’t afford to put a selfie up just to have someone search me up in google.
And then I’m going to pay cam model protection to take down as much of my shows as they can. Thankfully I never had a cam social media or posted selfies, the only thing I need gone are my shows.

1. Instead invest in a company or law firm that specializes in identity protection ie. removing yourself from the internet personally and professionally. I used a service called DeleteMe years ago. It was bare basic but it did help.
2. You can also hire companies to make a whole identify about you that takes up the first 10+ pages of Google. Now that is VERY expensive but just as expensive as all this plastic surgery you are talking about. They will make blog posts, newspaper posts, websites, advise you on which photoshoots to stage to make you look like this amazing person (going to fundraisers, running marathons, community events etc.) None of it actually happens but it's all for publicity.

What you are worried about is what everyone in your age group worries about. In this industry and every other industry where you get vetted. There are things you can do that don't mean you have to change all the symmetry in your face. Figure out what you need to do in your next passport photo/government ID photo to change the algorithm like shifting your face to the side, smiling, wearing glasses, etc.

 

[Miss_Lollipop]

Glasses make a HUGE difference. Photos of me with them bring up my porn with them. Photos of me without them bring up my porn without them.

I really think plastic surgery for this purpose alone should be something you only consider IF you go into this new career and find yourself being denied work and IF you've taken other measures like identity protection and small switches to your face.

I understand the fear and the desperation for a fresh start you're feeling. With the only fans Era "dabbling" in sex work is going to become more and more common. Unless you are choosing a career as a politician or diplomat or something with high security clearances I do not think it will be as bad as you're thinking. One step at a time... see if you even do have an issue with being denied work before you decide to rescue your entire face.

 

[Maryjane440]

Or maybe pay for dmca or cammodelprotection,so they can delete most of your past from google

 

[Brit]

The newer generations aren't going to care so much about your adult entertainment history. You might like this story about a former stripper who is running for Congress: https://www.thelily.com/she-was-a-s...s-running-for-congress-and-sharing-her-story/

 

[nightwish]

And then I’m going to pay cam model protection to take down as much of my shows as they can.

Can anybody tell me how this cam model protection works and where can i find it ?

 

[JessicaXOXOXO]

Can anybody tell me how this cam model protection works and where can i find it ?

Use BranditScan. Way cheaper than CMP. That is for DMCA take downs not scrubbing yourself from the internet as a camgirl.

 

[AudriTwo]

Please reach out to pineapple support before paying for your surgery.

 

[anabeauty37]

few years ago i wanted to end camming and start a new life , i opened a busness and i didnt wanted clients to recognize me , so i changed my hair color wich was long and blond to red and short , and ive gain few more kilos, plus didnt wear any make up on real life, while on cam always with on, i couldnt even recognize myself and anyway so manny new models daily for sure noone will remember you ...just change your look to be fdifferent then on cam and thats it .

 

[KenzieCams]

I'm a 34 year old mom of 3 with a degree in social work and my porn all over the internet. Zero regrets.

I am so sorry you are feeling the shame right now. It is so tough to work through. I just want you to know that you haven't ruined your life.

 

[THE MOLLIE MARIE]

The level of desperation and distress you are expressing here is really alarming. It sounds like you know you want to make changes, and you have ideas about which direction you want to go next, and that's great! But, like others said, I think it might be wise to leave the extreme measures for now, to be used only if you face the roadblocks you are worried about. It's not as damning or damaging as you may be assuming, and people who have a history in the adult industry are more plentiful than ever. Socially, it is becoming more acceptable. And on top of that, the more time that passes, the further under the mountain of new performers your old persona will be hidden.

If you decide to stop doing this work, taking some precautions and removing internet history would be a great place to start! And I think just discussing this concern with others in the industry can be helpful, I know I personally spin situations out in my head to imagine the worst possible outcomes often, but confiding in others brings me back down to earth.

 

[Gaia_Mommy]

Please listen to everyone here and contact Pineapple Support! They are a support system that helps sexworkers!

Pineapple Support

Pineapple Support is an organisation supporting the mental health of adult industry performers across the world.

pineapplesupport.org

I might one day be in your shoes saying exactly the same things you are, but I'm gonna tell you to take a deep breath. I think if you slow down a little bit and approach this with a level head, you'll be a lot better off.
You sound really smart, I'm sure you'll figure it out and you'll be fine! Perhaps consider how you can apply your degree to sexwork unless you really, really want to move away from the industry altogether.
I have a friend that cams who is going to school now for accounting and wants to use her degree to go independent and offer financial advising and do taxes for SW'ers.
I am also in school and plan to use my degree to cater to SW'ers as well when Im done with it. though my major keeps changing, and I'm figuring that out lol.
Would any SW'ers need artists or coders?

Kids are also so malleable, and if you act like SW is shameful, they will likely think that. If you be open and and honest with them at a point where they can understand, I think they will. Successful camming is being a people person, I'm starting to learn, whether you're a mean domme or not. And I'm sure in the end even if your kids are weirded out by it, they will still accept you as a person and as their mother if you've been good to them.
And if anyone else judges you for it so harshly to the point where they don't value you anymore as a person in their life... are you sure you want that person around you anyway?

And keep your chin up! I personally think that with the rise of younger, more progressive generations, the Sexwork stigma will slowly fade away. Maybe not entirely as there will always be haters and just lame jealous people, but I do think as all the old narcissistic boomer dudes die out, a lot more things are gonna become acceptable.

 

[KenzieCams]

Please listen to everyone here and contact Pineapple Support! They are a support system that helps sexworkers!

Pineapple Support

Pineapple Support is an organisation supporting the mental health of adult industry performers across the world.

pineapplesupport.org

I might one day be in your shoes saying exactly the same things you are, but I'm gonna tell you to take a deep breath. I think if you slow down a little bit and approach this with a level head, you'll be a lot better off.
You sound really smart, I'm sure you'll figure it out and you'll be fine! Perhaps consider how you can apply your degree to sexwork unless you really, really want to move away from the industry altogether.
I have a friend that cams who is going to school now for accounting and wants to use her degree to go independent and offer financial advising and do taxes for SW'ers.
I am also in school and plan to use my degree to cater to SW'ers as well when Im done with it. though my major keeps changing, and I'm figuring that out lol.
Would any SW'ers need artists or coders?

Kids are also so malleable, and if you act like SW is shameful, they will likely think that. If you be open and and honest with them at a point where they can understand, I think they will. Successful camming is being a people person, I'm starting to learn, whether you're a mean domme or not. And I'm sure in the end even if your kids are weirded out by it, they will still accept you as a person and as their mother if you've been good to them.
And if anyone else judges you for it so harshly to the point where they don't value you anymore as a person in their life... are you sure you want that person around you anyway?

And keep your chin up! I personally think that with the rise of younger, more progressive generations, the Sexwork stigma will slowly fade away. Maybe not entirely as there will always be haters and just lame jealous people, but I do think as all the old narcissistic boomer dudes die out, a lot more things are gonna become acceptable.

I need a sw friendly coder and artist AND accountant! there is a niche and market for all this.

I am in grad school for social work and will be a therapist for SW and my own therapist is a dominatrix who works at the office of another SW social worker, so really the only limits are self-imposed.

I figure if anyone has a problem with this being in my history, then it isn't a place I want to work at or people I want to be around anyway, and it saves me some time.

Just because there are people with puritan views and negative perspectives on SW does not make it true. Yes, people discriminate, but they also discriminate agaonst age, gender, race, and disability. It will always be something. Get in where you fit in or pave your own way. Don't change for anyone, OP.

 

[Danigirl]

What's done is done and you can't change it. It's why most of us veteran cammers always advise newbies that they should only do it if they're completely comfortable getting doxxed or running into future issues/not going into a field that may have ethics clauses etc. I'm in my 30s, established and completely self sufficient so I don't really have to worry about future employers. This is what I'll do until I retire myself from it or do other self employed options.

Consider this sort of like vetting. If someone doesn't want to be with you, hire you, or judges you harshly for an adult decision you made uncoerced, then fuck em. They're not your people. They'd rather cling to incorrect perceptions of you or their prudish morals than see you for the whole person you are. Sex is natural. Changing your whole facial structure should only be done if it's aesthetically what you want not what you feel you need to do to hide the past.