Hi everyone,
Sorry, didn't know what to call this thread really. But I find myself in a situation which I'm not sure what to do in. Having poked about the net tonight I've found this little community and am now hoping for any words of insight/encouragement/sanity to help me out at the moment.
I'm going to keep this fairly brief, both to increase the chances of people reading it and to limit the chance of the girl concerned being identified.
A little about me before I go further - I'm a 30-something male with a decent job living in the UK. I'm also not stupid, although I'm also not too proud to admit that there's a possibility that my judgement is clouded somewhat when the attentions of an attractive young woman are on me.
In September last year I signed back up to a cam site I'd previously used earlier in the year, but had quit as I was spending too much money. For three weeks or so I was on and off, chatting to different girls, getting steadily less interested in the whole thing and was pretty much ready to quit again when I came across a very sweet and pretty young lady who engaged me in a way that had been sorely lacking in the previous weeks. I was pretty hooked from the get-go and would look forward each evening to being able to see her. She certainly seemed to look forward to seeing me too. I remember one night a couple of weeks later I was out with friends and all I wanted to do was get home to chat with her, which I eventually did (drunk). I told her she should come to a concert (in the UK) with me. She humoured me (or so I thought) and started looking at dates. Before I saw her again I had booked tickets for the show and told her about it. She once again started looking at dates/flights etc. Maybe within a week we had traded numbers (after her initial reluctance) and I was able to contact her via phone. Anyway, blah blah blah, she made a big deal of saying that when she said she was going to do something, that meant she would do it. And she booked a flight to come and visit me. I told her how much I wanted to see her, she moved the flight forward by nearly a month. I admit I was pretty skeptical still at this stage but soon enough the weekend came round. I rushed home from work and later that evening drove to the airport. She had indeed made the journey to see me.
Note: I had thoroughly encouraged her to tell people what she was doing. I think her friend had expressed reluctance at her making the trip. I told her to make sure she gave my address and phone number to someone before she travelled over.
Anyway, what followed was a weekend (or most of a weekend) of incredible love-making. I don't want to go into detail but I had a wonderful time in her company (and I was pretty convinced she did in mine). She took an early flight home on the Sunday and like that she was gone. I felt sadness, but optimistic about where things might go. I missed her immediately, and stood in departures for as long as I could see her phone was still in range of the wifi hotspot I'd turned on on my phone to allow her to access the internet. I had deliberately been a little reticent about committing to a second weekend up-front (more to save her the embarassment if she didn't want to, or if we perhaps didn't get on) but all I could now think about was seeing her again.
So, fast forward to today. I haven't seen her face-to-face again, though I have spent many hours (and pounds) in her chat room. Mostly just chatting, enjoying her company. But things have changed and I can't reconcile what happened last year with how things seem to be now. We haven't spoken on the phone for several weeks and I can't seem to get her to agree on a time when we will be able to. A number of misfortunes have befallen her (and new ones do too, with some regularity) since Christmas. These problems seem to have tallied with her being down when on the site. She says she wants to meet again, though it will be difficult now as the site needs her to do more hours, amongst other reasons (including a recent second job). She gets incredibly jealous if she thinks I've chatted with another woman in the wrong way. We message each other less these days and often she'll go long stints without replying to me.
I've asked (via text, unfortunately) if there's a problem, if how she feels has changed. She says it hasn't. I tried to reassure her that if this wasn't what she wanted that I had no intention of sharing her information with anyone (I can see that being a very real concern) in the event that we pulled the curtain on the whole thing (as sad as that would make me). If I try to broach bigger issues ("Can we talk about us on the phone?") she is very adept at avoiding engaging with me. Often questions I ask via text are just ignored in favour of some throwaway reply. I present all this as 'factually' as I can. Am sure if you've read this far you've pretty much formed a view of what is, or might be, going on here.
Last week I was going out of mind over the whole thing and threw a significant amount of money at her so I could just sit and chat with her for a few nights, ignoring my concerns and acting as if everything was fine. Checking my bank balance a few days later I've now taken a step back and taking a break from paying for private sessions right now. She's still texting me little bits and pieces even though I've told her this is the case. Over the weekend she said she hoped we'd get to speak on the phone - we didn't.
So, I'm crazy about this girl. She occupies my thoughts every second of the day. I don't know where she is at though. I still can't believe what happened back last year, and would be interested to hear what other camgirls think of her visiting me. Have you heard of peoepl doing similar things? And if you're a site user, have you ever had a relationship with a camgirl? How did it work out? Finally, I obviously invite all thoughts on the above. What do you think is going on? Am I mad/stupid to pursue this any further?
Thanks
Sorry, didn't know what to call this thread really. But I find myself in a situation which I'm not sure what to do in. Having poked about the net tonight I've found this little community and am now hoping for any words of insight/encouragement/sanity to help me out at the moment.
I'm going to keep this fairly brief, both to increase the chances of people reading it and to limit the chance of the girl concerned being identified.
A little about me before I go further - I'm a 30-something male with a decent job living in the UK. I'm also not stupid, although I'm also not too proud to admit that there's a possibility that my judgement is clouded somewhat when the attentions of an attractive young woman are on me.
In September last year I signed back up to a cam site I'd previously used earlier in the year, but had quit as I was spending too much money. For three weeks or so I was on and off, chatting to different girls, getting steadily less interested in the whole thing and was pretty much ready to quit again when I came across a very sweet and pretty young lady who engaged me in a way that had been sorely lacking in the previous weeks. I was pretty hooked from the get-go and would look forward each evening to being able to see her. She certainly seemed to look forward to seeing me too. I remember one night a couple of weeks later I was out with friends and all I wanted to do was get home to chat with her, which I eventually did (drunk). I told her she should come to a concert (in the UK) with me. She humoured me (or so I thought) and started looking at dates. Before I saw her again I had booked tickets for the show and told her about it. She once again started looking at dates/flights etc. Maybe within a week we had traded numbers (after her initial reluctance) and I was able to contact her via phone. Anyway, blah blah blah, she made a big deal of saying that when she said she was going to do something, that meant she would do it. And she booked a flight to come and visit me. I told her how much I wanted to see her, she moved the flight forward by nearly a month. I admit I was pretty skeptical still at this stage but soon enough the weekend came round. I rushed home from work and later that evening drove to the airport. She had indeed made the journey to see me.
Note: I had thoroughly encouraged her to tell people what she was doing. I think her friend had expressed reluctance at her making the trip. I told her to make sure she gave my address and phone number to someone before she travelled over.
Anyway, what followed was a weekend (or most of a weekend) of incredible love-making. I don't want to go into detail but I had a wonderful time in her company (and I was pretty convinced she did in mine). She took an early flight home on the Sunday and like that she was gone. I felt sadness, but optimistic about where things might go. I missed her immediately, and stood in departures for as long as I could see her phone was still in range of the wifi hotspot I'd turned on on my phone to allow her to access the internet. I had deliberately been a little reticent about committing to a second weekend up-front (more to save her the embarassment if she didn't want to, or if we perhaps didn't get on) but all I could now think about was seeing her again.
So, fast forward to today. I haven't seen her face-to-face again, though I have spent many hours (and pounds) in her chat room. Mostly just chatting, enjoying her company. But things have changed and I can't reconcile what happened last year with how things seem to be now. We haven't spoken on the phone for several weeks and I can't seem to get her to agree on a time when we will be able to. A number of misfortunes have befallen her (and new ones do too, with some regularity) since Christmas. These problems seem to have tallied with her being down when on the site. She says she wants to meet again, though it will be difficult now as the site needs her to do more hours, amongst other reasons (including a recent second job). She gets incredibly jealous if she thinks I've chatted with another woman in the wrong way. We message each other less these days and often she'll go long stints without replying to me.
I've asked (via text, unfortunately) if there's a problem, if how she feels has changed. She says it hasn't. I tried to reassure her that if this wasn't what she wanted that I had no intention of sharing her information with anyone (I can see that being a very real concern) in the event that we pulled the curtain on the whole thing (as sad as that would make me). If I try to broach bigger issues ("Can we talk about us on the phone?") she is very adept at avoiding engaging with me. Often questions I ask via text are just ignored in favour of some throwaway reply. I present all this as 'factually' as I can. Am sure if you've read this far you've pretty much formed a view of what is, or might be, going on here.
Last week I was going out of mind over the whole thing and threw a significant amount of money at her so I could just sit and chat with her for a few nights, ignoring my concerns and acting as if everything was fine. Checking my bank balance a few days later I've now taken a step back and taking a break from paying for private sessions right now. She's still texting me little bits and pieces even though I've told her this is the case. Over the weekend she said she hoped we'd get to speak on the phone - we didn't.
So, I'm crazy about this girl. She occupies my thoughts every second of the day. I don't know where she is at though. I still can't believe what happened back last year, and would be interested to hear what other camgirls think of her visiting me. Have you heard of peoepl doing similar things? And if you're a site user, have you ever had a relationship with a camgirl? How did it work out? Finally, I obviously invite all thoughts on the above. What do you think is going on? Am I mad/stupid to pursue this any further?
Thanks
