okay so i can't believe i am opening up about this but.... i always had mental health problems pdd-nos and mild anxiety pdd-nos is=pervasive developmental disorder not otherwise specified then has i got a little bit older maybe around not sure what age more mental health disorders started to come up little before 13. maybe 11 or 12. i had some close family member's die around that age maybe that's why.... i remember feeling so bad for my uncle who died. he told doctor i can't die i'm too young to die. T_T . anyways.... i often tell myself i'm a wus because i'm still so lucky because i can see have legs money and a house and so on how dare i feel sad or anxious. however my therapist tells me ummm it's not like that... it's just brain chemical imbalance. don't go so hard on your self. mental health is painful sometimes. medication helps and i am better but still. yeah i am bipolar type 2 also have mild obsessive compulsive disorder Borderline personality disorder and Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified. yes its alot i know mental health disorders just runs in my family and my mom had problems during her pregnancy also i was born early a little. this is why.... sorry i post this it's just i can't see therapist in person now because of the stupid virus we had phone chat last week however it's kinda not the same thing. also this virus is making me freak out! yesterday i thought i was dying however it was just anxiety.... please understand. i am venting. no no no i am not looking for i'm sorry i am just venting here i dont have friends in real life only online. so i am venting here. thats all! please understand. thanks anyone here else with mental health problems???