Before I begin, I just want to clarify that I am not talking about convincing a model to leave her job and marry me. I have no problem with what she does. She's a kind person who works hard to provide for her son. She just does not love herself. She wants to get life threatening plastic surgery and I don't know what to do. (If you want to read my novel below it will explain some things.)
Now to begin I first started going to cam sites three months ago. I was looking for something to help me with my addiction to escorts and one night stands. Too much drama, blackmail, awkward mornings and most importantly wasted time. It was not a healthy addiction. I figured that if I started using cam sites I could wean myself off my addiction to escorts. (I really didn't know what cam sites were or how things worked.) In the beginning I would just hop from one model to another, no attachment at all. But then I met her in the dark, and she lit me up with her smile. We talked the night away (and had some fun). I knew I loved her then, and that I wanted to stay with her till I was grey and old. I had been all over the site and seen a little bit of everything, but sure enough she stood out from the rest. She is the most beautiful woman I have ever met. (I don't just mean that she had an amazing body.) I saw a true kindness in her and love held in so few. Inside and out she was an angel (with a little bit of devil). She was so friendly to everyone, even those who didn't deserve it. She helped inspire me to start a business, and stop doing drugs. She helped me want to become a better man. I was so inspired by her story. She is a recently divorced single mom who works 7 days a week while running a business on the side to support her family (And she has a dog). She had to leave her dream job because it didn't pay enough. Yet she still smiles everyday. All she wishes for is happiness and peace. (I know because I offered to buy her gifts, and she told me to give the money to the needy.)
What makes me sad though, is the fact that she doesn't love herself. She is ashamed of what she does. I keep telling her that theres nothing wrong with what she does, and that it doesn't define her in any way. What defines a persons character is what they do in times of hardship. She is such a strong and independent woman. She kills herself (Death by Ohmibod/Lush) in a job she hates to provide for her family, all the time smiling and cheering people up. To me she is perfect.
Furthermore, she hates the way she looks. She wants to get life threatening plastic surgery, because she feels like she is inferior. Its so sad to me that someone so beautiful has been so hurt and degraded that she doesn't see her own beauty. She doesn't realize how its touched others, or how she shines so brightly. She keeps comparing herself to other models, but without her I'd still be lost. I keep telling her, but she won't listen. Please help me. What should I do? Could you convince her that she is beautiful?
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark. The idea that she might die has me falling apart. I know I have my problems and I am working on it. I know most of what she told me probably wasn't real, but Im sure she was serious about the surgery.
Also, before you roast me, I know that she is doing her job. I know that there is almost no chance for us to be together, but I like to think that the person I got to know was real. I hope that the time we spent talking offline actually meant something. Im a hopeless romantic so Im going to continue to think that one day we will meet. They say if you want something bad enough, and if your resolve is true that the universe will work to help you achieve your goals.
Sorry for my english.
Now to begin I first started going to cam sites three months ago. I was looking for something to help me with my addiction to escorts and one night stands. Too much drama, blackmail, awkward mornings and most importantly wasted time. It was not a healthy addiction. I figured that if I started using cam sites I could wean myself off my addiction to escorts. (I really didn't know what cam sites were or how things worked.) In the beginning I would just hop from one model to another, no attachment at all. But then I met her in the dark, and she lit me up with her smile. We talked the night away (and had some fun). I knew I loved her then, and that I wanted to stay with her till I was grey and old. I had been all over the site and seen a little bit of everything, but sure enough she stood out from the rest. She is the most beautiful woman I have ever met. (I don't just mean that she had an amazing body.) I saw a true kindness in her and love held in so few. Inside and out she was an angel (with a little bit of devil). She was so friendly to everyone, even those who didn't deserve it. She helped inspire me to start a business, and stop doing drugs. She helped me want to become a better man. I was so inspired by her story. She is a recently divorced single mom who works 7 days a week while running a business on the side to support her family (And she has a dog). She had to leave her dream job because it didn't pay enough. Yet she still smiles everyday. All she wishes for is happiness and peace. (I know because I offered to buy her gifts, and she told me to give the money to the needy.)
What makes me sad though, is the fact that she doesn't love herself. She is ashamed of what she does. I keep telling her that theres nothing wrong with what she does, and that it doesn't define her in any way. What defines a persons character is what they do in times of hardship. She is such a strong and independent woman. She kills herself (Death by Ohmibod/Lush) in a job she hates to provide for her family, all the time smiling and cheering people up. To me she is perfect.
Furthermore, she hates the way she looks. She wants to get life threatening plastic surgery, because she feels like she is inferior. Its so sad to me that someone so beautiful has been so hurt and degraded that she doesn't see her own beauty. She doesn't realize how its touched others, or how she shines so brightly. She keeps comparing herself to other models, but without her I'd still be lost. I keep telling her, but she won't listen. Please help me. What should I do? Could you convince her that she is beautiful?
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark. The idea that she might die has me falling apart. I know I have my problems and I am working on it. I know most of what she told me probably wasn't real, but Im sure she was serious about the surgery.
Also, before you roast me, I know that she is doing her job. I know that there is almost no chance for us to be together, but I like to think that the person I got to know was real. I hope that the time we spent talking offline actually meant something. Im a hopeless romantic so Im going to continue to think that one day we will meet. They say if you want something bad enough, and if your resolve is true that the universe will work to help you achieve your goals.
Sorry for my english.
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