Rant: My first MFC show sucked

[ErinnJade]

Hey guys! I finally did my first show on MFC. I had done my research (including a lot of reading this website) and had a plan. Then the public chat was silent except for one asshole who ignored my tip menu and wanted me to flash my tits without tipping, which I'm not comfortable doing for free. He also accused me of begging when I told him to look at my tip menu, which is funny because he was begging to see my tits but also frustrating because I'm worried I came off as mean for kicking him out of my room. Then I didn't realize that the PMs would show up behind the main window. I didn't see them until I closed the chatroom. I had meant to set the PMs to friends only so I wouldn't get too many to keep track of and didn't realize I hadn't done that. Nobody tipped, so I left after half an hour to avoid messing up my cam score more than I already did. It only went down to 970 but I'm scared I'll completely ruin it if the same thing happens again. I'm just pretty discouraged overall I guess. It was really frustrating to try to start a conversation and have nobody actually respond. I know I shouldn't do things I'm uncomfortable with or give in just because someone is being pushy, but I'm scared I'll come off as stuck up or something because I won't flash my tits for free. It's just not something I'm comfortable with. Oh, and my mic was being weird even though I thought I had fixed the settings before I went online. So I'm pretty annoyed with myself right now because I feel like I made stupid mistakes and could have done much better.