Daily Thoughts

[Dannyhomebody]

The fuck? Dude, just tell me hi, and say that you hope all is well, and leave it at that. Because right now you are just doing too much. Lol. Also, that was a few weeks ago that I was sick, and when they were helping me out by dropping off stuff. Old news. Stop asking models personal questions and prying into their personal life. Thank you for the well wishes.

Hope all is well. Not trying to pry but will, after what you said, now and moving forward, tone it down.

 

[yummybrownfox]

Hope all is well. Not trying to pry but will, after what you said, now and moving forward, tone it down.

Yes, please do. Thank you, and enjoy the rest of your day.

 

[Life_Happens]

I logged on to CB this morning and saw something that shocked me.

One of my favorite models had an unusual screen grab image. It was a really pretty picture of her face with the letters R. I. P. At the bottom.

I clicked to enter her room and her stream was nothing but that same image.

I scrolled down to her bio. There was nothing left except a message from one of her model friends saying that she had passed away from emergency surgical complications.

Always so sweet, and full of energy and dreams. A lot of people are going to miss her.

She was only 25 years old.

I am sad today.

So, I guess my daily thought is to always tell those who are important to you that they are. You never know if it’s the last time you might see them.

Sorry for the bummer post. I just needed to say it.

 

[Dannyhomebody]

Yes, please do. Thank you, and enjoy the rest of your day.

Hope all is well. You're welcome, and you enjoy the rest of your day/night as well.

 

[yummybrownfox]

I was just blasting Elton John's "Bennie and the Jets," and now I'm listening to the song Mary J. Blige did several years ago where she sampled that track...called "Deep Inside."

 

[Jay_Storm]

When you are burning bridges make sure you end up on the right side of the crevasse.

 

[yummybrownfox]

They want to ban To Kill A Mockingbird from schools because parents don't want their kids to be uncomfortable? Oh, for crying out loud.....

 

[yummybrownfox]

Happy 41st Birthday to my sweetie Justin Timberlake!!! It's gonna be J.T. night tonight on cam!

 

[Finchomatic]

Deleting Twitter was one of the best things I did so far this year.

 

[Dannyhomebody]

Anybody out there on ACF have this issue, or a similar one? I used to pay for private shows for a model about a little less than a decade ago, and we had a good connection overall. Fast forward to now, where the former model quit webcam modeling, and works, what he, considers to be a regular W-2 job now. Odd how a decade later, webcam modeling is bad for people, according to him, after he had to pay back taxes he didn't pay while working as a webcam model.

Adding insult to injury, because I work in the webcam industry now, he tried bullying me on Skype to stop doing webcam work. 1st, he told me I just don't want you to be exploited. Then he sent me photos of yours truly which were conveniently taken at times when I appear to be bored. Things most likely at that time were just slow/no activity. Webcam modeling, according to him is a dead end for anybody involved, and then he told me when he last saw me online, I looked like a cancer patient. WTF??? I never told him I was better than he was as a model and never would/will be, but more than once he did the Skype bullying, I'm better than you message/s. Example: I'm 6 years younger than you but I make more money than you do.

I told him I have my reasons for doing webcam work, I love what I do and the people I meet, the income is nice, and last but not least, I do porn on the side and I, said respectfully, use the webcams to market myself to get more work/to do more porn movies. I was mean in some of my responses back to him, I admit that, but like I always say: be nice to me and I'll be nice to you, be mean to me and I'll be mean to you. Simple as that. Before I blocked him from Skype, I told him thank you for all the good times we had, and I wish him nothing but the best now and moving forward, but we're done here and I also, not in these exact words, told him to stop projecting his personal failures on me as an ex-husband, taxpayer, and as a father. Big surprise, his ex-wife is raising his daughter, not him. He just visits occasionally.

Looking at this situation now, he just comes across to me as a hypocrite/bigot. Another example: He says porn is bad one minute, a dead end for anybody involved but then, he says he's watching porn on his work break/s. WTF again? Has this happened to anybody else, or is it just me? Hopefully this never happens to anybody. Just curious, anybody on the ACF, what's your thoughts on this?

 

[MarieElise]

told him to stop projecting his personal failures on me

Sounds like you were on the right track here, in my honest opinion.

It's important to establish clear boundaries with pushy, rude people from the getgo, or as soon as possible. Or just block them like you did.
Nobody who's working hard has time for that childish B.S.

 

[CheeseMoon]

A colleague of mine let it slip today that he is a regular in a Chaturbate room. To level it out, I told him that I spend a fair bit of time on StripChat. It was less awkward than I thought it would be. So there's that.

 

[Dannyhomebody]

They want to ban To Kill A Mockingbird from schools because parents don't want their kids to be uncomfortable? Oh, for crying out loud.....

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Hope all is well yummybrownfox. If parents don't want their kids to be uncomfortable, watching this great movie, and/or reading this great book, just tell them to STFU and stop whining. If you won't tell them this, I will. The parents and kids will only get uncomfortable when they read the sequel. I was disappointed with this one, but don't take my word for it. https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/go-se...YAyABEgJFD_D_BwE#idiq=9664973&edition=8873713

 

[bud9752]

They want to ban To Kill A Mockingbird from schools because parents don't want their kids to be uncomfortable? Oh, for crying out loud.....

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is it the 1930's all over again ??

 

[CheeseMoon]

is it the 1930's all over again ??

There is always the 1930s somewhere in the world when it comes to thoughts, literature and art.

Land of the free (some assembly required).

 

[yummybrownfox]

Hope all is well yummybrownfox. If parents don't want their kids to be uncomfortable, watching this great movie, and/or reading this great book, just tell them to STFU and stop whining.

Yes. THANK YOU.

"I dOnT wAnT mY tImMy To Be UnCoMfOrTaBlE!"

 

[Deleted member 57737]

New CAM: This seems interesting for streamers. I like the fact that it has a "flip out screen" so you can look into the lens and see the picture at the same time. I love it when a model looks into the cam. Granted, it seems more for musicians with some extensive microphone options and professional audio connectors. But interesting either way. Only problem is that streaming is max 1080p. Recording is 4K. Price is not too far out with 479$

Zoom Q8n-4K Handy Video Recorder - Newsshooter

Zoom has announced the Q8n-4K Handy Video Recorder. This is a portable audio recorder/camera that supports two external XLR inputs and simultaneous recording of up to 4 tracks with the added benefit of being able to capture 4K video. The Q8n-4K has been designed as a flexible 4K Video...

www.newsshooter.com

 

[yummybrownfox]

When you pay a bill online, and then you see on your banking mobile app (I look at it everyday to check for any strange charges) that there is a second charge of that amount "pending." And that pending charge has significantly brought down your checking account's available balance. OMG, not this shit again.....

I can understand how some of these banned Chaturbate models feel (Who bust their ass on cam, and then get banned and can't get their fucking money). Except in my case, this will probably all blow over on Monday. In their case, unfortunately, they never even get to see their money, which is fucked up!

 

[Deleted member 57737]

Damn, do you know the feeling when you think about a situation you had earlier and wish you would have intervened but you didn't?

I was in the supermarket standing in line at the pay desk. Two places in front of me there was a very old woman maybe 80 years old. She put her things on the desk for the employer for cash out. But apparently forgot one thing that was hidden under her bag inside her shopping cart. The employer realized that and started to jell at her about being a thief and trying to cheat. The old woman was very apologetic and tried to explain that she just forgot it. It was just a little thing, it looked like a magazine or something. The employer didn't care and went on to insult her. It seemed as if he got worked up about her being a thief and went on jelling at her until the manager came and jelled at the employer to let it go. The asshole employer really seemed to process some personal problems and found a victim. I realize that right now it is not an easy job to be at the cash out of a supermarket. The danger of infection seems big and so on. And I understand that its not so easy on the nerves. But man, taking that out on an old woman looks to me as if he has the wrong job.

Generally I feel ashamed now. Firstly because our society treats old people really bad IMO. Especially now where everything changes into virtual reality. If they want to buy a simple ticket for a train they have to interact with a computer. And this is simply not the thing for many old people. And given what we all could benefit from the wisdom of old people this is ridiculous. And secondly because I didn't intervene. And that leads me to think about a general problem we have due to Corona (and other things). Every conflict is turning into a fight. Argumentation is replaced by the loudness of your voice and the willingness to hurt your "opponent". In many cases this makes me stay out of conflicts. I'm not a jelling person. I was taught to listen to people without interrupting them even when I think they are talking bullshit. But that seems to be a disadvantage nowadays.

Fuck!

 

[Dannyhomebody]

Damn, do you know the feeling when you think about a situation you had earlier and wish you would have intervened but you didn't?

I was in the supermarket standing in line at the pay desk. Two places in front of me there was a very old woman maybe 80 years old. She put her things on the desk for the employer for cash out. But apparently forgot one thing that was hidden under her bag inside her shopping cart. The employer realized that and started to jell at her about being a thief and trying to cheat. The old woman was very apologetic and tried to explain that she just forgot it. It was just a little thing, it looked like a magazine or something. The employer didn't care and went on to insult her. It seemed as if he got worked up about her being a thief and went on jelling at her until the manager came and jelled at the employer to let it go. The asshole employer really seemed to process some personal problems and found a victim. I realize that right now it is not an easy job to be at the cash out of a supermarket. The danger of infection seems big and so on. And I understand that its not so easy on the nerves. But man, taking that out on an old woman looks to me as if he has the wrong job.

Generally I feel ashamed now. Firstly because our society treats old people really bad IMO. Especially now where everything changes into virtual reality. If they want to buy a simple ticket for a train they have to interact with a computer. And this is simply not the thing for many old people. And given what we all could benefit from the wisdom of old people this is ridiculous. And secondly because I didn't intervene. And that leads me to think about a general problem we have due to Corona (and other things). Every conflict is turning into a fight. Argumentation is replaced by the loudness of your voice and the willingness to hurt your "opponent". In many cases this makes me stay out of conflicts. I'm not a jelling person. I was taught to listen to people without interrupting them even when I think they are talking bullshit. But that seems to be a disadvantage nowadays.

Fuck!

It's sad to read/see people are being divided on so many issues. Racism, age, COVID, fat-shaming, gender pronouns, etc. Sad to read/see this everyday. As long as you try to be a good person and do what you consider to be the right thing and safe, no harm, no foul right? Still dealing with these issues in 2022? Not sure why? Remember the quote from Spanish philosopher George Sentanyana: Those who don't learn from history, are doomed to repeat it. Try to be a good person, and as long as you're not hurting yourself and/or anybody else, do what is best for you and others. Regarding that cashier? Could be a number of things. Wage garnishments from creditors for failing to make payments to creditors on time? Child support for unwanted child? Work and/or home life sucks? All of the above. Suddenly he decides to project his frustrations on some random elderly woman? Not sure. But either way you slice it, what that cashier did to that elderly woman was wrong and the cashier you mentioned needs a consultation, a random drug test, fired, and/or all of the above.

 

[piercedcock78]

It's sad to read/see people are being divided on so many issues. Racism, age, COVID, fat-shaming, gender pronouns, etc. Sad to read/see this everyday. As long as you try to be a good person and do what you consider to be the right thing and safe, no harm, no foul right? Still dealing with these issues in 2022? Not sure why? Remember the quote from Spanish philosopher George Sentanyana: Those who don't learn from history, are doomed to repeat it. Try to be a good person, and as long as you're not hurting yourself and/or anybody else, do what is best for you and others. Regarding that cashier? Could be a number of things. Wage garnishments from creditors for failing to make payments to creditors on time? Child support for unwanted child? Work and/or home life sucks? All of the above. Suddenly he decides to project his frustrations on some random elderly woman? Not sure. But either way you slice it, what that cashier did to that elderly woman was wrong and the cashier you mentioned needs a consultation, a random drug test, fired, and/or all of the above.

Yeah, I know what you mean.

Personally I try to stay away from it all as much as possible (don't watch much news, try to avoid toxic people, don't really post a lot except for funny memes etc on my reg social media accounts).

However, even a scroll through friends on my fb feed will reveal so many sides taken rather than any attempt to try to understand each other or empathize.

That said, understandably alot of people are down. I will have friends message me with stuff like "i hate people" or "why does this have to be so fucked up?"

What I try to remind them is that it is easy to get stuck on and remember the negatives. I certainly have had a lifetime of that. However, within these last several years, I have been fortunate to have a few good people come along and restore some of my faith in humanity.

It does happen...not all the time...it always seems like the bad apples seem to stand out in the bunch...but every now and then there are good people out there. It inspires me to always try to be one of them.

 

[yummybrownfox]

Damn, do you know the feeling when you think about a situation you had earlier and wish you would have intervened but you didn't?

I was in the supermarket standing in line at the pay desk. Two places in front of me there was a very old woman maybe 80 years old. She put her things on the desk for the employer for cash out. But apparently forgot one thing that was hidden under her bag inside her shopping cart. The employer realized that and started to jell at her about being a thief and trying to cheat. The old woman was very apologetic and tried to explain that she just forgot it. It was just a little thing, it looked like a magazine or something. The employer didn't care and went on to insult her. It seemed as if he got worked up about her being a thief and went on jelling at her until the manager came and jelled at the employer to let it go. The asshole employer really seemed to process some personal problems and found a victim. I realize that right now it is not an easy job to be at the cash out of a supermarket. The danger of infection seems big and so on. And I understand that its not so easy on the nerves. But man, taking that out on an old woman looks to me as if he has the wrong job.

Generally I feel ashamed now. Firstly because our society treats old people really bad IMO. Especially now where everything changes into virtual reality. If they want to buy a simple ticket for a train they have to interact with a computer. And this is simply not the thing for many old people. And given what we all could benefit from the wisdom of old people this is ridiculous. And secondly because I didn't intervene. And that leads me to think about a general problem we have due to Corona (and other things). Every conflict is turning into a fight. Argumentation is replaced by the loudness of your voice and the willingness to hurt your "opponent". In many cases this makes me stay out of conflicts. I'm not a jelling person. I was taught to listen to people without interrupting them even when I think they are talking bullshit. But that seems to be a disadvantage nowadays.

Fuck!

That is so shitty. I've been with my grandmom in her car before when she drove to her bank's drive-thru to take out money, and then tried to use one of those bills at Dunkin'...but was told they couldn't accept it because it was a counterfeit bill. She was shocked. They just told her calmly, and they weren't rude about it or accusing her of anything.

And I'm sure there must have been a time when I was at the grocery store, and almost forgot about the case of water in that storage compartment under the cart. And remembered it in time to show it to the cashier. No intent to steal.

Some people just have no business working a customer service job. Plenty of other people right now who'd love to have that guy's job.

 

[yummybrownfox]

A casting call I responded to wants to hire me for a skin care campaign and pay me $2,000...but they said the date of the shoot is February 25 (The shoot is for 2 days). Unless they can change the date, I can't do it because that's the date of my surgery that I've been waiting a long time for (and the hospital has postponed on me TWICE).

 

[yummybrownfox]

A casting call I responded to wants to hire me for a skin care campaign and pay me $2,000...but they said the date of the shoot is February 25 (The shoot is for 2 days). Unless they can change the date, I can't do it because that's the date of my surgery that I've been waiting a long time for (and the hospital has postponed on me TWICE).

They e-mailed me back saying that there is flexibility with the shoot date, and asked me when I will be available!

 

[yummybrownfox]

I'm on cam now, and I said fuck it, I'm not wearing the wig tonight. Had a headache since the weekend...and a migraine today. Not wearing that shit on my head. Lol.

Also, can someone besides me post on here so I'm not hogging the thread? LOL. How was everyone's day?

 

[Finchomatic]

Why is it when you're late getting to work you hit every red light. But when you don't want to be somewhere all the lights are green?

 

[CheeseMoon]

How was everyone's day?

I'll tell you once I'm back from my biannual dentist's checkup. Wish me luck!

(On the other hand, ever since I completely stopped with the soda drinking, she's just rummaging around in there for 20 minutes before the dollar signs in her eyes starts to fade and she summarily and in a slightly disappointed way dismisses me).

 

[Jay_Storm]

I woke up at 430 am, got ready to to go for my run, but sat on the couch and didn't move for 30 minutes. Gonna grab a cup of coffee and hop in the shower. Sometimes the flesh is weak.

 

[CheeseMoon]

Sometimes the flesh is weak.

Nah. If the planets align every day, you're probably high on something

 

[Deleted member 57737]

The most profound and positive insight I got from camming is that I'm not the only one who is crazy.