- Jul 12, 2011
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It's horrible being not popular...
I guess in America I was always near the top 20 and I didn't really think about it. Now, in the middle of the American night time I'm not so popular and I cry because there are some girls with MASSIVE cam scores. I can't help assuming that because they're higher rated than me, they're better/more interesting/funnier/prettier people with better bodies, lives and I shouldn't even bother competing because I'll never be as important and liked as them.
I've never sounded more like a 14 year old emo.
Okay, that's my bit. Just wanted to share.
I know I'm insecure and lots of models might not necessarily be the most popular but they enjoy it and are happy... but I find it hard to be happy when it's all ONE BIG GODDAMN COMPETITION AND I'M LOSING! >.<
I can't help my feelings!
				
			I guess in America I was always near the top 20 and I didn't really think about it. Now, in the middle of the American night time I'm not so popular and I cry because there are some girls with MASSIVE cam scores. I can't help assuming that because they're higher rated than me, they're better/more interesting/funnier/prettier people with better bodies, lives and I shouldn't even bother competing because I'll never be as important and liked as them.
I've never sounded more like a 14 year old emo.
Okay, that's my bit. Just wanted to share.
I know I'm insecure and lots of models might not necessarily be the most popular but they enjoy it and are happy... but I find it hard to be happy when it's all ONE BIG GODDAMN COMPETITION AND I'M LOSING! >.<
I can't help my feelings!
 
	 
	
 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		
 
 
		
 
 
		 
 
		 now i'm sort of swimming between 1400 and 1500. it's frustrating because i'm doing the exact same thing i was when i started i just have less tippers and less viewers overall. some days i just say screwit, and do my thing and pass my goal and other days i just don't want to get on at all. i've been trying not to focus on my camscore at all and just focus on my goals and that seems to help some.
 now i'm sort of swimming between 1400 and 1500. it's frustrating because i'm doing the exact same thing i was when i started i just have less tippers and less viewers overall. some days i just say screwit, and do my thing and pass my goal and other days i just don't want to get on at all. i've been trying not to focus on my camscore at all and just focus on my goals and that seems to help some.  
 
		 
 
		 I am guessing that Tam has a bigger penis than he does, but that would be just a wild speculation on my part
 I am guessing that Tam has a bigger penis than he does, but that would be just a wild speculation on my part 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		
 
 
		 
 
		