My first gay experience

[justinmiller18]

So last friday night i was going to do a B/B show for the first time on chaturbate. After thinking about it i decided to do it off cam as i wasn't sure what to expect. The guy that i was with has been one of my best friends since we were in the 5th grade, he is also the one that introduced me to chaturbate. Last Monday we were hanging out like normal, and he ask me if I would be interested in doing this. I instantly said yes, without thinking about and I'm not sure why? Before this I had never even thought about being with a guy. Then Friday night my friend came over we had dinner, watched a movie and then went and got in my bed. We laid there talked for a little while than began kissing (which wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be). After kissing for a little bit I was very turned on, and so was he. We then both took of our under shorts and got back into bed. After this my friend ask if i would go down on him? I did and I enjoyed this a lot more than i expected, I kept going until i made him cum, and then i swallowed. After that my friend wanted to give me head, i must say i had one of the best orgasms that i have ever had. After this we layed back down and took a break, we than began kissing some more, before i ask my friend if we could try anal. i was really curious to try this as my past girlfriends really enjoyed it. My friend brought lube with him so we used some of it and then we started. We started with doggy which was ok, but then i got on top with him on bottom and i really enjoyed it, we finished and then took a shower and went to bed.

My problem is i have been having a lot of emotions the last couple days since doing this.
Am i gay?
what would my parents think of me if they knew i was doing this?
why did i instantly say yes when my friend ask me?

 

[AllisonWilder]

While I can appreciate your detailed description of your first guy-on-guy experience, I'm not really sure what that has to do with camming if you didn't, in fact, do it on cam.

My problem is i have been having a lot of emotions the last couple days since doing this.
Am i gay?

The only person that can determine your sexuality is you.

what would my parents think of me if they knew i was doing this?

I'm not so sure that there's anyone here that can tell you what your parents will think about this, unless, of course, your parents are members of this forum.

why did i instantly say yes when my friend ask me?

Because you wanted to, I'm guessing.

 

[Anarah]

me throughout reading this post

 

[justinmiller18]

oh ok

 

[Anarah]

what is this supposed to mean lol?

see edit

unless, of course, your parents are members of this forum.

lmfaoo what a way to come out that would be!

 

[justinmiller18]

unless, of course, your parents are members of this forum.

lmfaoo what a way to come out that would be![/quote] i could see how that wouldn't go to well

 

[Fay_Galore]

I sort of knew what was coming, but still clicked and read the whole thing :')


Yes, maybe you are gay! but maybe you're not! maybe you're comfortable with calling yourself heteroflexible? but who cares? enjoy life!

 

[IsabellaSnow]

Pretty much what Fay said, maybe you are, maybe you're not. Only you can decide that. Are you attracted to girls? You're clearly attracted to this particular guy. How about other guys? I'm not a closet gay so I really can't tell you how it feels to be one. I have no idea. If you are genuinely attracted to women then you're probably bi or bi curious. But I really don't know how you feel inside. Some gay guys find women attractive (I think it's an instinct thing) even though they're 100% gay. Honestly I don't think many people are 100% gay or straight, they're just usually pretty close to one end, close enough that they have no interest in sexual experiences with the same sex.

I'm glad you experienced it off cam first before trying it on cam. You may be different but I find girl/girl camming shows pretty overwhelming with all the excitement and loads of things going on, they're awesome, but I think it might make it a bit weird and put a lot of pressure on it if you hadn't ever done anything like that before!

Maybe now you should try camming with him and see how it goes?

 

[LilyMarie]

So... how many more threads like this are you planning to make on this forum?

 

[Anarah]

Ahaha yeah I just looked and this is like his third one just like this

No wonder my bullshit-attention-seeker radar was pinging.

 

[Sevrin]

I gotta say, this is how I imagine Models Only to be, with one tale of torrid model-on-model sex after another, except without all the penises.

 

[LaceyRoyce]

After responding to his first thread I got a number of repetitive and "fishy" pms .. wanting to discuss gay sex tips... And now this. This is all just jerk off material...

 

[IsabellaSnow]

After responding to his first thread I got a number of repetitive and "fishy" pms .. wanting to discuss gay sex tips... And now this. This is all just jerk off material...

I got similar, you may be right.

 

[justinmiller18]

How is this jerk off material?

 

[mickerd]

How is this jerk off material?

All of your posts seem like you are writing erotic literature geared towards arousing yourself, it certainly doesn't help that all of your redundant questions pertain to stuff that nobody but yourself could ever realistically answer. These girls are only going to entertain this type of convo with you for so long, I'm guessing it gets old fast.

 

[justinmiller18]

I didn't know you guys felt this way I was just looking for some advise

 

[xSALTx]

I gotta say, this is how I imagine Models Only to be, with one tale of torrid model-on-model sex after another, except without all the penises.

:lol: :lol: :lol:

 

[Anarah]

It's like they think we're retarded or something.

 

[justinmiller18]

What are you talking about?

 

[Camgirl]

If you want some advice I am sure you can find one of us willing to give some..however, since this is quite personal and would require our undivided attention, please be sure to go private first.... :lol:

 

[LilyEvans]

Here babe:

http://bit.ly/MyQSA2

Have a nice day.

 

[Rose]

How is this jerk off material?

Actually, I suspected with your first thread that this was a fetish. I get a couple of guys who take me exclusive on streamate fairly regularly asking for this type of stuff. My favorite guy always asks me to wear my silk robe and pearls while I ask him about his gay experiences and tell him to diddle his ass. Funny, you'd think after as many shows as we've done together the 'playing dumb' card would have stopped by now. I go with it every time because I want to see if he'll ever acknowledge our past shows and slip up on playing the first timer role.

 

[Brad]

I didn't know you guys felt this way I was just looking for some advise

Then you could at least put your thread/questions in the correct area of this board. If you go look you will see this right under where it reads "General Camming Discussion" which is the section you posted this thread in;

Anything cam girl related. KEEP IT NICE!

Instead of trying to get this site to change to suit your needs it would be wiser to find a different site that is geared towards the info you seek. A site meant for bi and gay males would be better experienced to answer your questions, not a site meant for female cam models. Plus why did you even feel that you needed to post a play by play description of your encounter? I don't see how that info is relevant to this site at all nor is it needed to ask the questions you proposed. It is much easier to write that you had sex with another guy rather then go into graphic detail of the encounter. This is why others suspect that you are not being honest or genuine. I agree with them.
:roll:

 

[IsabellaSnow]

A site meant for bi and gay males would be better experienced to answer your questions, not a site meant for female cam models.

This is one thing. I answered the best I could previously, but really, I have no idea on what it feels like to be a gay man. I have many gay friends and we talk about certain aspects, but other than that? Mmmm nope. There are so many gay forums on the net, I'm sure plenty of gay camming forums too. Asking a bunch of girls about a dude problem is like me going up to a jock forum and asking the dudes what sort of tampons I should use.

It is much easier to write that you had sex with another guy rather then go into graphic detail of the encounter

And again, this. There is never a need to be so graphic. The only people who graphically tell a bunch of strangers these things tend to be trying to have a wank. There are plenty of obscure fetishes out there. This could easily be one of them.

 

[justinmiller18]

I was just looking for advise sorry guys. And for those of you that think i was trying to find something to jack off to you are wrong i cam myself on chaturbate. i wouldn't need to go into a forum to do that