Grrr I am so sick of getting poked and prodded for blood tests and IVs and injections. More blood taken yesterday, and I'll have an IV on Thursday for the CT scan I need. All the pokeys are the worst part for me. I'm such a baby when it comes to pain, sheesh.
So anyway, this is the latest. CT scan on Thursday, discuss results with the new doc that I'm seeing (this one is an oncological surgeon as opposed to the gastroenterologist I've been dealing with for weeks now), then if there's no new information from the CT scan, I need to decide whether or not to go through with Laparoscopic surgery to remove my gallbladder. I hate that it's a decision. I'd much rather someone professional tell me what to do. I'm always worried that I'll make the wrong decision. In this case the big "what if" is what if I get it removed and still have the pain after I recover? I'll have these remorseful feelings of "I should have waited and done more tests" and "well then what the hell is wrong with me still?"
With the way things have gone for me, I don't expect any new results from the CT scan. It's honestly making me start to feel a bit crazy, doubting myself and wondering if I have been explaining or interpreting my pain wrong to the doctors. Like, what if I am accidentally leaving out one tiny bit of info that could completely change their tune? But now that I've talked to 3 different medical professionals and they've all said "that really sounds like it's your gallbladder" I just have to trust myself and my instinct I guess.
So now we wait... again. My hopes of finishing all of this by Nov. 1 are pretty much out the window. If this goes as I figure it will, the surgery will be the first or second week of November. Maybe December will be my month to get back on track with MFC and finish in the top 20 again.
While we are on the topic of MFC, I have got to take a second and give a big :happy-cheerleaderkid: to Roy! He continues to blow my mind day after day, or I guess night after night when I am on cam. I had a handful of really generous guys around last night, so thank you all. Each one of you is making the very most of the little time I can spend on cam lately, and I am so grateful. :text-thankyoublue:
I already told most of you about my new fishies and how happy they make me. I will end this rambly blog post with my fishy pics!
So anyway, this is the latest. CT scan on Thursday, discuss results with the new doc that I'm seeing (this one is an oncological surgeon as opposed to the gastroenterologist I've been dealing with for weeks now), then if there's no new information from the CT scan, I need to decide whether or not to go through with Laparoscopic surgery to remove my gallbladder. I hate that it's a decision. I'd much rather someone professional tell me what to do. I'm always worried that I'll make the wrong decision. In this case the big "what if" is what if I get it removed and still have the pain after I recover? I'll have these remorseful feelings of "I should have waited and done more tests" and "well then what the hell is wrong with me still?"
With the way things have gone for me, I don't expect any new results from the CT scan. It's honestly making me start to feel a bit crazy, doubting myself and wondering if I have been explaining or interpreting my pain wrong to the doctors. Like, what if I am accidentally leaving out one tiny bit of info that could completely change their tune? But now that I've talked to 3 different medical professionals and they've all said "that really sounds like it's your gallbladder" I just have to trust myself and my instinct I guess.
So now we wait... again. My hopes of finishing all of this by Nov. 1 are pretty much out the window. If this goes as I figure it will, the surgery will be the first or second week of November. Maybe December will be my month to get back on track with MFC and finish in the top 20 again.
While we are on the topic of MFC, I have got to take a second and give a big :happy-cheerleaderkid: to Roy! He continues to blow my mind day after day, or I guess night after night when I am on cam. I had a handful of really generous guys around last night, so thank you all. Each one of you is making the very most of the little time I can spend on cam lately, and I am so grateful. :text-thankyoublue:
I already told most of you about my new fishies and how happy they make me. I will end this rambly blog post with my fishy pics!
