I'm also not exactly sure how to frame this: so much of it has been touched on before in various threads here. And I wanna be clear, too....and start by saying that I'm not opening this discussion in the hopes of “saving” the model in question. She is however, struggling, and today I saw something in camland that I'd never seen before....and it seems to be at least a part of the reason for her struggle.
I'm curious whether any models here have faced something similar within themselves, and to hear any thought you may want to offer here.
This model is a very sexual woman who doesn't quite know what to do with her sexuality at work. It's not shyness (or maybe it is...I only know her from what I've seen). I've seen her just “let herself go” and do a cumshow in free....but not as the result of her room...mostly because she just had an “itch that needed scratching” In those moments, her sexuality was...wanton, I think is the word....a lust that enjoyed the exhibitionist part of it as much as the physical part of it. She knew exactly what she was doing.
And it was perfectly...slutty (if that word doesn't sit well with you, choose one that does). It was just the kind of thing that you'd imagine would keep her room busy at MFC. But that was also the very rare exception rather than the rule, and she usually only feels comfortable being wanton in private. And she doesn't get many of those..nor even many tips towards a countdown. The reason for that seems to be that it's all or nothing for her....the wanton part of her is reserved for something that her room rarely provides....and I don't know her well enough to do more than speculate what that “something” might be....what it felt like today tho (and what prompted this thread) is that it's got something to do with an inhibition towards allowing her lusty abandon out enough in free to even suggest that she's anything other than a sincere, genuinely nice person....who most enjoys talking to sincere, genuinely nice people.
It feels important here to mention that she's working to support herself, same as almost every model.
And she wants the job....like so many at MFC, it's an opportunity that can pay better than anything else in her world. But unlike most models, she doesn't woo....she wants to be wooed, which suggests to me that she's a romantic -for lack of a better word- whose overtly sexual side depends on circumstances that aren't usually present in a room.
Every model I know wears some kind of a mask at MFC...it's the thing that makes you cautious about your personal life, it's the thing that allows you to judge members, and yourself....to determine what is not only encouraged by you, but what you'll put up with if there are tokens involved. It's your “work face”, and it leaves a part of you in another room, away from the camera and the guys. Many of you have found a balance between whatever is the equivalent of what I said was “the romantic” part of this model ( call it your private persona), and the part of you that you're willing to give to your work....and that balance is what helps camming be both fun and profitable for you.
This model truly does not seem to have a filter that allows her to separate her “work face” from her real one, or to integrate her innate sexuality with the ability to woo her guys.
Which leads me, finally, to the question that is the reason for this thread.
Have any of you struggled with anything similar to what I've tried to describe here? Did you -in finding your place in camland- face anything like this? I'm curious about your insights. And I'm a little hesitant to ask....it all seems a little personal to me.
But I'm asking anyway
I'm curious whether any models here have faced something similar within themselves, and to hear any thought you may want to offer here.
This model is a very sexual woman who doesn't quite know what to do with her sexuality at work. It's not shyness (or maybe it is...I only know her from what I've seen). I've seen her just “let herself go” and do a cumshow in free....but not as the result of her room...mostly because she just had an “itch that needed scratching” In those moments, her sexuality was...wanton, I think is the word....a lust that enjoyed the exhibitionist part of it as much as the physical part of it. She knew exactly what she was doing.
And it was perfectly...slutty (if that word doesn't sit well with you, choose one that does). It was just the kind of thing that you'd imagine would keep her room busy at MFC. But that was also the very rare exception rather than the rule, and she usually only feels comfortable being wanton in private. And she doesn't get many of those..nor even many tips towards a countdown. The reason for that seems to be that it's all or nothing for her....the wanton part of her is reserved for something that her room rarely provides....and I don't know her well enough to do more than speculate what that “something” might be....what it felt like today tho (and what prompted this thread) is that it's got something to do with an inhibition towards allowing her lusty abandon out enough in free to even suggest that she's anything other than a sincere, genuinely nice person....who most enjoys talking to sincere, genuinely nice people.
It feels important here to mention that she's working to support herself, same as almost every model.
And she wants the job....like so many at MFC, it's an opportunity that can pay better than anything else in her world. But unlike most models, she doesn't woo....she wants to be wooed, which suggests to me that she's a romantic -for lack of a better word- whose overtly sexual side depends on circumstances that aren't usually present in a room.
Every model I know wears some kind of a mask at MFC...it's the thing that makes you cautious about your personal life, it's the thing that allows you to judge members, and yourself....to determine what is not only encouraged by you, but what you'll put up with if there are tokens involved. It's your “work face”, and it leaves a part of you in another room, away from the camera and the guys. Many of you have found a balance between whatever is the equivalent of what I said was “the romantic” part of this model ( call it your private persona), and the part of you that you're willing to give to your work....and that balance is what helps camming be both fun and profitable for you.
This model truly does not seem to have a filter that allows her to separate her “work face” from her real one, or to integrate her innate sexuality with the ability to woo her guys.
Which leads me, finally, to the question that is the reason for this thread.
Have any of you struggled with anything similar to what I've tried to describe here? Did you -in finding your place in camland- face anything like this? I'm curious about your insights. And I'm a little hesitant to ask....it all seems a little personal to me.
But I'm asking anyway
