The knowledge that I'm doing pretty damn good considering im just me. With all the ammo that the thousands of other women have. Years of experience, huge social media presence, top shelf looks, plastic surgery, hundreds of video clips, a lot of regulars, the time to put in 40 hours compared to my 15, or just flat out luck. I guess I can say I do alright. Could be worse. I mean atleast I'm not scared and mousy like I was when I first started. it's nice to know that being who I am.. I actually stuck this out, despite the fact that it has yet to pay off the way I had hoped. And I have more knowledge now than I ever did in the beginning. And on top of that.. I was never confident enough to even wear lingerie before this.. because simply put I didn't see myself that way. this probably didn't really answer the OP.. but it made me think regardless.