I am so surprised to read this, I have always thought you are 100% beautiful in and out. And you look so confident on cam I would have never guessed. Keep doing whatever you need to do to feel good and sexy, but just know that you already are.Insecurity.
If I felt more confident in my appearance I think I'd like to be online more and doing a variety of shows. As I am now, I feel so under confident about logging on and showing my body.
I'm working on it though. Eating right and exercising. =)
This exactly!Lack of motivation which ties in with thinking I just can't do it. I'm pretty confident in some ways but this job is just hell if you're someone who often compares yourself to others. In my head I'm not like the girls who are successful, the ones I admire, so why even try?
I also think that with my personality I would do a million times better with all my eggs in one basket which is what I am trying to do now but the whole time I've been doing this I've had a toe in here, a toe in there and that's a good way to stop yourself from having any major success anywhere. At least for me. Plus, putting all your eggs in one basket is very intimidating and can be risky which is why I think it took me so long to realize it's what I needed to do.
Make tomorrow the first day of your new life, so everything up to you......This exactly!
I've been spending a couple hours on MFC, see it's not working, go to Streamate, see that's not working either, go to Chaturbate, make zero tokens, back to MFC, etc etc. It's exhausting, it's depressing, and in the end I've made pennies this month because I haven't been focusing on getting and keeping a hold on new members, just trying desperately to make any money at all. I look at the girls in my camscore who have more people in their rooms and I just keep hating myself more and more. I'm awful about comparing myself to other women and I 100% blame my mother for it.