Okay. This is a one-time post, I'm going away for good after I post this.  Ban if you want but I'm abandoning this account anyway after I post this. 
 
I want to deeply and unreservedly apologize to Amber, Ash, Nicole, Kick, Austin, Alice and everyone I offended with my horrible comments.  I am 
not looking for forgiveness or any kind of acceptance; I just want to say how sorry I am for all the hurt that I caused.  A dear friend spent quite some time with me explaining why what I said was so hurtful and devastating, and I am so sorry.
Amber: I shouldn't have come here and ranted and attacked people who I disagreed with.  I got pissy and made a horrible comment that I didn't think you were worth a damn.  In fact you were the person I was talking about all along -- I was just angry at you and took it out in a horrible comment.  It was a horrific thing to say and I'm sorry I reflected poorly on you and your community.
Nicole: You are a beautiful human being. Full stop. I may not agree with your life choices but it wasn't right to criticize you, much less on such an open place.  I am so sorry for any hurt I caused you.
Kick and Austin:  I called you out because I honestly was jealous of your amazing success stories. Because of that success your rooms are deluged with people and it's harder to get your attention as a result.  That didn't mean I should have said making money is trivial, it is clearly not and it is hard work.
Alice, I'm sorry I got you involved; I think you are amazing and bring such incredible talent to the field and that's the point I was trying to make... I made it very poorly.
Everyone else:  I'm sorry for the hurt and grief that this whirlwind caused.  I have a lot to learn and a lot to get better at, so I will diminish and focus on myself and improving life for others around me.
And to the amazing, patient and beautiful 
Ash -- you are my north star. You make life better for everyone you meet.
I wish you all the happiness and joy in the world.  And by the way -- the new forums are amazeballs. 
 
Bye, -Meeko